Ok 5 1/2 hours and counting! I'm up early. I haven't been able to sleep the past couple days. I think Satan is trying to break me because I have had one obstacle after another the past couple days. I am tired and I am scared! Who wouldn't be though right? I mean they are cutting into my baby. I don't think I have ever felt this scared in my life other than when I was 9 and I thought there was a vampire in my closet, but that doesn't count. It helps knowing my brother Jared is meeting me up at the hospital. I don't think I would make it through without the support from him today. It is very humbling and very hard to realize to let the Lord's will be done. Letting everything go and saying its up to you, Father. I leave this in your hands. This is the first time I've actually knelt in prayer in 3 years because of pain in my knees. I think it means so much more to me and I start to realize what Jesus did for me and my son. How he suffered for us. Thank you all for the help you've given us over the past few months. I am so thankful for a loving ward who honestly shows concern and wants to help as much as possible. I'm glad that they are not there just because it should be done but because they have such love in their hearts for my family. I make a promise to all that have helped me that one day I will repay your loving kindness by passing on the same love and concern and help to someone else.