We are back from the hospital tonight. Finally I have some quiet time to reflect. Lee is a nervous wreck and I worry about him as much as Keian. He is not coping well and getting sick again. I keep telling him he needs to take his medications like the doctors tell him to or he will just feel worse. In case you don't know he suffers from depression from a hit to the head. Let's just keep that between us...hahaha..he'd kill me if he knew I was writing this on here. I have decided not to with hold all the juck in our lives and make this prettier than it seems. I am keeping this for Keian too so he can know what he went through and what I am going through too when he gets older.
I am doing surprisingly well through all of this. Yes its hard with my many health concerns too but emotionally I think I need to be a rock for Lee. Not to say that I don't break down but I want him to realize I am there for him and I have faith Keain will be just fine. He really really needs that.
So we know have a suction machine, a nebulizer and a pump for feeding Keian. Looks like the doctor is going to add on an apnea machine for at night so if he aspirates we will know right away.
My house is a disaster! Being gone for 2 1/2 weeks in the hospital or appointments has really taken a toll on the house. The 16 and 17 year old girls are comming over to help me clean tonight. Some of them are going to help out with Jessica here at the house. It really will be nice to have an extra set of hands for her. She has been trying to make her own cookies lately. She gets out the prepackaged mixes a stick of butter and eggs and starts mixing it together. I really should post some more pictures of the kids. I know some of you don't get to see them very often.
I so appreciate all of the words of encouragement! I will be showing them to Lee. If you aren't leaving messages in the guest book please please do. If that is the only way you can help out. I appreciate the support and really need it right now.